balena mugdha-capalena vilokitena ,
man-manase kim api capalam udvahantam \
lolena locana-rasayanam ikshanena ,
lila-kishoram upaguhitum utsuko 'smi ||35||
I am eagerly desirous to embrace that very sportive youth Krishna who is delightful
to behold with our restless longing eyes. The One who has evoked an
unsusual capriciousness and zeal in our hearts with His childlike, fickle
and enchanting glances.
Shri Bilavmangal ji Maharaj is becoming extremely
agitated for the darshan of that Lila Kishore Krishna and is tossing about restlessly. As
if he will be not be able to live without seeing Him ; thus he is calling
out in agitation that the One who is joyous to behold, no, no, rather
the One who grants pleasure to all my senses , and makes us ecstatic,
I am becoming eagerly desirous to embrace Him with my longing eyes.
When will He manifest His charming form in front of my eyes?
By a fragment
of His grace, He Himself appeared in me and aroused the longing
to attain Him. What ability did a a person like me steeped in delusion
(esp as to the supposed reality of the world) have that I could ardently
long to behold Him.With His fickleness, Krishna sowed this seed in me;
as its fruition I am wish to see Him. Plus coming extremely close to
Him, I am yearning to embrace Him with my eyes .
In the words of Shri Paramanand Das ji what
sort of agitation is apparent
hari teri lila ki sudhi aavai |
kamalnayan manmohini murti, man man chitra banaavai ||
ek baar jaahi milat kripa kari so kaaise bisraavai |
Closing his eyes and meditating,
Shri Bilavmangal ji also says. Ah! When will I become eagerly desirous
of embracing that dark-hued youth Shyam Sunder, the One who is joyous to behold, that dark lampblack
which resides in our eyes, who imparts light to blind eyes and makes
them radiant, with my yearning eyes?
Steeped in the sakhi bhava, Shri Lilashuk says, “ Clasping every limb to
my heart through my eyes, may I be able to embrace Him just as the gopis
embraced different limbs of dark-hued Krishna when He reappeared in
the Maha Rasa after vanishing.
Some gopi caught his lotus
hands, while another clasped His feet. Yet another took Lord Krishna
in her heart through her eyes and began hugging Him. Whereas
another gopi filled the receptacles of her eyes with His ineffable beauty
and began drinking it. Lilashuk is getting absorbed in this very rasa
or religious rapture.
man-manase kim api capalam udvahantam \
lolena locana-rasayanam ikshanena ,
lila-kishoram upaguhitum utsuko 'smi ||35||
Simple Meaning:
The Childlike Fickle Glance of Lord Krishna
The Rasa-laden Commentary:
Shri Bilavmangal ji Ardently Longs to See Lord Krishna
Lord Krishna Resides in Lilashuk's Heart
Shri Paramanad Dasji & Krishna
hari teri lila ki sudhi aavai |
kamalnayan manmohini murti, man man chitra banaavai ||
ek baar jaahi milat kripa kari so kaaise bisraavai |
The Dark-hued Lord Krishna is Joyous to Behold
Shri Lilashuk Yearns for Lord Krishna
The Gopis & Lord Krishna in the Maha Rasa
1 comment:
In this shloka,very real feelings of
Sh.Bilvmangalji are shown.He is saying; "lalsa bhi tumhi jagate ho aur ab shaman bhi tumhi karo"kitana sunder bhav hai apne picture bhi kitani anuroop lagayin hai.thanks ise
itna sunder dikhane ke liye.
minakshi.
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