kada nu kasyam nu vipad-dashayam ,
kaishora-gandhih karunambudhir nah |
vilocanabhyam vipulayatabhyam -
alokayishyan vishayi-karoti ||63||
Lord Krishna, the Ocean of Mercy
When will some dire distress of mine make Krishna, the ocean of mercy who bears the fragrance of fresh youth, focus His attention on me by looking at me with His wide eyes?
The Rasa-laden Commentary:
Shri Billavmangalji Longs to Behold Lord Krishna
Ever Youthful Krishna
My very life, my heart's beloved, tell me what should I do now ? I can not wait any longer! Come and deliver me from this agony arsing because of not being able to behold You! Fresh Youth! Alas! When will you look at me with your wide eyes! O youthful Supreme Lover ! Which greater misfortune is going to befall on me which You are waiting for, O Lord? Aren't you able to see my painful suffering? Then why this delay? O Master of mine! Thirsting for some rasa, my mind is restless, all the limbs of my body are yearning for some tender touch, there is deep pain residing within me. My eyes are thirsting since ages, they are eagerly desirous to relish the charm of some fragrant Youth.
Lotus Eyes of dark-hued Krishna
Ah! What is the outcome of this irrepressible pain afflicting my heart and soul? O Lord come, do not make any delay now. I have wandered aimlessly in all directions and observed that there is no joy or peace anywhere. Oh Hari! This mind of mine does not stop being eagerly desirous in wanting to behold You. Alas! What greater adversity could befall me ? Looking at me once with Your large beautiful lotus eyes make my heart and soul, the inner core of mine being, the focus of your attention.
'shamitam madhuram, vamitam madhuram '
Calling out for Lord Krishna
O Lord !O Master! O Essence of everything! When will You fulfil this desire of mine? Let us merge our feeble call with Shri Billavmangalji's yearning and call out in the same direction.
1Krishna is rasa or the highest taste and Radha is prema or the means of tasting it. Krishna is full in himself, yet he is full of love, and love is never satisfied with itself. To taste Himself more fully He manifests as two—Radha and Krishna.
2Madhuram: fifth verse of 'madhurashtakam by Shripad Vallabhacharyaji